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On failure

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Failure, they say, is a growth experience; you learn from failure. I wish that were true. It seems to me the main thing you learn from failure is that it’s entirely possible you will have another failure.

-Nora Ephron, “I Remember Nothing: And Other Reflections”

Written by Jessica

March 28, 2011 at 11:07 pm

Posted in Wisdom

“My running shoes have become giant erasers…”

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My running shoes have become giant erasers on my feet. Every foot strike rubs away some memory of a previous indiscretion with food or smoke or drink. Every successful mile releases me from the grip of the demons of failure. Every starting line is another chance to prove that my past will not determine my future.

-John Bingham, “No Need for Speed: A Beginner’s Guide to the Joy of Running”

Written by Jessica

March 27, 2011 at 8:33 pm

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Why I’m running

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After a brief hiatus following my February 5K debut (due to equal parts of illness and sloth), I’ve gotten back into this running thing. Or, jogging, as I’m not really that fast at it and occasionally need to stop to catch my breath.

But I’ll call it running because it sounds better, and more accomplished than merely “jogging.” That ‘more accomplished’ thing must be working — half the people who know I’ve been running think I’m running marathons, although I politely tell them 3.1 miles is slightly shorter than 26.2. I need to progress a little more before I would even consider putting my body through that kind of hell. Now, a half marathon seems a little more doable.

It’s weird how running/jogging kind of grows on you. The more you train, the more you feel the pull to go out and put yourself through it again. I think it’s kind of neat to see physical changes that come from running — increased stamina, better posture, adapting to a more efficient way to breathe.

But I digress.

One incredibly nice benefit of running is weight loss. Since January, it’s been kind of fun to check in on the scale and see the numbers go down. I’ve lost about 15 pounds since then, and hope to continue on to lose much more (With more than running, I realize. Sustained changes in diet and adding weight training are unavoidable, I know.). It’s so motivating to know that I’m doing something that’s great and I can wear clothing that I couldn’t a few months ago.

I’ve found that running is also giving me a chance to throw some light on things lurking under the surface of my emotional life. Namely: Fear of What Other People Think, fear of failure, laziness. And so on. All the bad stuff that goes bump in the night and manifests itself in unpleasant ways in one’s personal life.

But it doesn’t matter, because these things do not have to define who I am. Life is changing, and people can change. I can change, and I can be a better person. Life feels very possible right now.

Maybe that’s just the endorphins speaking, though.

Written by Jessica

March 27, 2011 at 7:04 pm

Posted in Florida Living