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So, yeah, I’m still alive.

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Sometimes, my life is so inundated with words and ideas and things that I don’t know what to write about here.

Here’s a post to say my heart is still beating and I’m still taking one breath after another.

Life has been mostly pretty good lately. My small group has been giving me a lot of support and joy and new friends, and the occasional Perkins run. My work has given me interesting (and challenging) stories. Spring is sprouting in Northwest Missouri and it feels so good.

I’ve been marking the occasion with wearing as much dresses as possible, and buying a few new ones to add to my lineup. This week I’ve already worn two, and I unearthed my warm weather clothing to find so many more. Dresses make life more fun, I think.

Last week saw some pretty interesting developments in the life of JShu.

1) A former boss was fired. I posted something on Facebook that I partially regret. I feel mixed feelings about this, to be honest. On one hand, Jesus died for everyone. On the other hand, I watched this person needlessly make so many people’s lives absolute hell that it’s hard to reconcile the other hand with this one.

2) I made my first TV news package. My employer is pushing for lots and lots of multi-platform journalism now and so I naively jumped aboard with gusto only to find, yeah, it’s been 4 years since I’ve touched any video camera or video-editing software. Last Thursday, the night the package ran, I may have had an office breakdown, complete with tears, in front of at least one coworker.

It just literally took forever, plus I was on a strict deadline I couldn’t back out on and I also had to write a newspaper article for the next day (in addition to a few other breaking stories that happened that day…).

I came in on the morning shift specifically for an event I was going to (Anne Lamott’s KC event) so I could duck out and go with a coworker. That didn’t work — I came in at 8:15 a.m. and left at 7:30 p.m. The event started at 7, an hour away from the ‘Joe.

I was so disappointed thinking that I had missed it. But, because I’m part crazy and part really hopeful and determined, I jumped in my car and sped on down to KC. I made it in under an hour. Told you I’m crazy.

I was five minutes from the Plaza (the event was at the pretty white church with the light beam at night) when my coworker who was there called and told me Anne had just finished speaking. So I made it to the book signing. I didn’t say as much as I wanted to to Anne (there were a ton of people in line and I think she was exhausted by it), but she was still super nice and signed my book and posed for a photo.

I realized that for all of my cynicism and bitterness sometimes, my sense of hope is stronger than I realize. When other people would give up or just go home, I go big and hope that something good will happen. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. But you have to have something or else you’re just in the pit of despair.

Anyways. That’s a short account of things here. I’ll have to write more often.


Written by Jessica

April 11, 2013 at 1:07 am

Posted in Missouri Living