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The funny thing about perfection…

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is that it doesn’t exist. There is no perfect relationship, job, family, or what-have-you.

Saturday night I had an ugly brush with perfectionism. I had in mind the perfect costume for a coworker’s Halloween party, had planned out what I needed and got my materials.

A first attempt to wrangle them into submission failed, and I put off trying to assemble something until immediately after work the night of the event.

Then my second attempt failed, and by that time I was majorly late and frustrated and about ready to throw in the towel on even going at all.

I took it off, googled “last minute costumes” (many of which still required crap I didn’t have), sighed, and decided to simplify and regroup. I put it back on and tried something new.

And I went to the party and danced and was a Chatty Cathy and received a lot of compliments on it. Here is the final, imperfect, falling-down result:

(I was a Sharknado! With gray tulle and hooked-on-shark gummies.)

I guess this is all to say that I am way too critical of myself, too often. I don’t entirely know the answer to becoming less critical but maybe it involves stopping to breathe more often, regrouping, and moving forward in faith that things will most likely be OK and that other people are not likely to be judging me as harshly as I’m judging myself at any given moment.

That’s at least a place to start, I guess.


Written by Jessica

October 28, 2013 at 1:40 am